girls definitely read into things way too deeply. well, most girls anyways. (and i think i fall into that category..)
on another note, today was meiqi's 20th birthday :)
we surprised her big time! everything was beautifully perfect. picture this: you open your door to find this dark hallway littered with balloons scattered here and there, and at the end, is a gorgeous chocolate cake, lit with 20 glowing candles. perfect eh? the funny and sad part was that we waited TWO WHOLE hours for her to come home!! we were all sitting on that couch taking turns as "lookout" aka watchdog post. twas some good times though! and great conversation too! for example, we were talking about homosexuality, nature vs nurture.. meiqi had a friend who worked in a lab with budgies, and APPARENTLY one can induce homosexuality on these birds. so, if a female budgie were in a cage with another female, they'd become lesbians... yet if those 2 same females were separated and put into another cage with a Male, then they'd become heterosexual. looking at that case, what does it say about humanity and sexuality? nature? are we born with the genes which writes off our sexuality? or.. are we nurtured in such a way as to promote our type of sexuality? interesting eh? are humans so impressionable as to have our essence - our sexuality - as a male or female to be shaped and molded by the media? literature? society?
something to think about..
1.6.06
27.5.06
Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself
Love your neighbour as yourself.
easier said than done.
earlier today, at the end of my morning jog, there were two old men by that wharf, maybe in their early 50s or late 40s. i believe they were homeless gentlemen, or lived in a shelter, carrying all their necessities on their backs. i was doing my devotions then, and one of them came up to me and asked for help. their radio wasn't working, and they wondered if i could fix it. so i tried, i really didn't mind at all. and after a lill while, it started working. then the guy (his name was Larry) went back to his friend. a few minutes later, his friend came up to me . now if i were a boy, i would have been less cautious.. but i started getting a bit creeped out. partly cuz i'm a girl, partly cuz these 2 guys honestly looked quite sketchy, and partly cuz i was in a pretty desolate area... so if i screamed there would be no one to hear me.
what especially triggered my worry? it was when the friend came up to me and said out of the blue that the guy named Larry had the "hots for me" . so alarm bells starting ringing, and i was freaking out inside. all i could think of was "GET OUT OF THERE QUICK" . Don't get into any trouble. RUN!
And then the friend introduced himself; he held his hand out to shake mine .. cuz well, its custom . and i honestly did not want to shake his hand. i hesitated for a split second, but i gave in afterwards. i mean, when you think about it, you'd be asking for more trouble if you took the other route. but the fact that i hesitated is saddening. something that stuck out in my mind was when the friend told me just before I left that they were good people, and that I had no reason to feel afraid or worried. this brought up 2 points in my head: (1) they could tell i was uncomfortable in that situation... so in other words, they knew i was judging them and making assumptions based on their appearances. (2) Jesus befriended the very least of us during his reign on Earth - meaning the beggars, the prostitutes, the lowest of the lows on the foodchain of mankind.
So if we are called to be like Jesus, if we are called to "love thy neighbor as thyself" why didn't i do it? i judged just like the Pharisees. there was no heart of understanding, compassion, or love. all i felt was fear, and all i wanted was to be done with them at the earliest possible moment. what kind of love am i showing there? ..it then got me thinking. what about charity? when we give to the poor --> wouldn't that action come from a heart of understanding, compassion and love? well, i say no. that sounds somewhat skeptical.. but charity is so incredibly impersonal. yes, you give to the poor, but you're not befriending them. you help them on more of a once-in-your-lifetime sort of deal - not expecting to ever see them again. but we're not called to do that. Jesus didn't do that. he's asking so much more from us. so much, that i doubt i can offer a portion of it.
if given this whole situation by the lake again, i'd do the exact same thing... or i might not have even gone there at all. i know my parents would definitely not have wanted me there; they probably don't ever want me jogging by myself anymore. it is one thing to show love ... but it is another to be naive to the point where you're endangering your own self. then the question still persists: what would Jesus do? and does that apply to my situation? especially seeing as he was a man, and i am still a girl. did i dissapoint my father in heaven today? i think i did. i know i did.
so my prayer is this: Lord teach me to love as you have loved. Allow me to be the salt and light of this world as you have called your people to be. Let me not be afraid, for you are with me, and you will protect me. Lord give me the strength and courage to see beyond the surface straight to the heart that is yearning for you. I pray all these things in your Son's most precious name, Amen.
easier said than done.
earlier today, at the end of my morning jog, there were two old men by that wharf, maybe in their early 50s or late 40s. i believe they were homeless gentlemen, or lived in a shelter, carrying all their necessities on their backs. i was doing my devotions then, and one of them came up to me and asked for help. their radio wasn't working, and they wondered if i could fix it. so i tried, i really didn't mind at all. and after a lill while, it started working. then the guy (his name was Larry) went back to his friend. a few minutes later, his friend came up to me . now if i were a boy, i would have been less cautious.. but i started getting a bit creeped out. partly cuz i'm a girl, partly cuz these 2 guys honestly looked quite sketchy, and partly cuz i was in a pretty desolate area... so if i screamed there would be no one to hear me.
what especially triggered my worry? it was when the friend came up to me and said out of the blue that the guy named Larry had the "hots for me" . so alarm bells starting ringing, and i was freaking out inside. all i could think of was "GET OUT OF THERE QUICK" . Don't get into any trouble. RUN!
And then the friend introduced himself; he held his hand out to shake mine .. cuz well, its custom . and i honestly did not want to shake his hand. i hesitated for a split second, but i gave in afterwards. i mean, when you think about it, you'd be asking for more trouble if you took the other route. but the fact that i hesitated is saddening. something that stuck out in my mind was when the friend told me just before I left that they were good people, and that I had no reason to feel afraid or worried. this brought up 2 points in my head: (1) they could tell i was uncomfortable in that situation... so in other words, they knew i was judging them and making assumptions based on their appearances. (2) Jesus befriended the very least of us during his reign on Earth - meaning the beggars, the prostitutes, the lowest of the lows on the foodchain of mankind.
So if we are called to be like Jesus, if we are called to "love thy neighbor as thyself" why didn't i do it? i judged just like the Pharisees. there was no heart of understanding, compassion, or love. all i felt was fear, and all i wanted was to be done with them at the earliest possible moment. what kind of love am i showing there? ..it then got me thinking. what about charity? when we give to the poor --> wouldn't that action come from a heart of understanding, compassion and love? well, i say no. that sounds somewhat skeptical.. but charity is so incredibly impersonal. yes, you give to the poor, but you're not befriending them. you help them on more of a once-in-your-lifetime sort of deal - not expecting to ever see them again. but we're not called to do that. Jesus didn't do that. he's asking so much more from us. so much, that i doubt i can offer a portion of it.
if given this whole situation by the lake again, i'd do the exact same thing... or i might not have even gone there at all. i know my parents would definitely not have wanted me there; they probably don't ever want me jogging by myself anymore. it is one thing to show love ... but it is another to be naive to the point where you're endangering your own self. then the question still persists: what would Jesus do? and does that apply to my situation? especially seeing as he was a man, and i am still a girl. did i dissapoint my father in heaven today? i think i did. i know i did.
so my prayer is this: Lord teach me to love as you have loved. Allow me to be the salt and light of this world as you have called your people to be. Let me not be afraid, for you are with me, and you will protect me. Lord give me the strength and courage to see beyond the surface straight to the heart that is yearning for you. I pray all these things in your Son's most precious name, Amen.
26.5.06
25.5.06
i heart you music
i love music. i plain and simply love it. when you hear an earth shattering chord progression along with heart wrenching lyrics, your whole soul and being just soars above absolutely everything. its as if you're lifted up into the clouds of gravity defying heights. and you reach a euphoric peak where every thought, every thing, everyone just melts away. Music is the key to the lock of chains tying all of us down to Earth. Music unleashes the soul and frees the spirit.
some people say that Christians can only worship God in songs of praise only and only if there are lyrics. for without lyrics, there is nothing connecting the song to God. I disagree wholeheartedly. Music is a gift from God. that we are able to make beautiful (or even not so beautiful) sounds from within our body is a miracle in itself. if anything, i witness God's greatness when i hear classical music. many composers were religious. Take J.S. Bach for example who was a grounded Lutheran. He clearly saw God and was able to write what I think are God-inspired works of art. take his brandenburg concertos, or even the well-tempered clavier - there is such intellectual depth and artistic beauty that is almost divine. Same with Beethoven. At the age of 30, his hearing began to become impaired. imagine. he was unable to hear his own creations, he couldn't hear the chirping of birds or the rustling wind through trees. he heard nothing. silence. yet through all this time of trial he never ceased composing. Even on his death-bed he sketched a new symphony. from his Late piano sonatas to his 9th and last symphony mankind has witnessed his genius. a genius no man could ever tap. why? it was because in silence he had faith in God, and continued to compose in the midst of growing doubt. i truly believe Beethoven's greatest works were near the end of his life. this was when he began to see clearly through the originally fuzzy lens. he began to witness firsthand God's true glory. and it is this glory that he portrays in his music. no words can describe the beauty, the depth, the passion, the love, and the hope that is written in those seemingly lifeless black dots and lines on some flimsy manuscript paper.
music reaches the deepest pits of our very being. music is God's gift. it is his arms extending down to us, embracing us, speaking to us. music is the greatest gift we could ever ask for. . and i love music .
some people say that Christians can only worship God in songs of praise only and only if there are lyrics. for without lyrics, there is nothing connecting the song to God. I disagree wholeheartedly. Music is a gift from God. that we are able to make beautiful (or even not so beautiful) sounds from within our body is a miracle in itself. if anything, i witness God's greatness when i hear classical music. many composers were religious. Take J.S. Bach for example who was a grounded Lutheran. He clearly saw God and was able to write what I think are God-inspired works of art. take his brandenburg concertos, or even the well-tempered clavier - there is such intellectual depth and artistic beauty that is almost divine. Same with Beethoven. At the age of 30, his hearing began to become impaired. imagine. he was unable to hear his own creations, he couldn't hear the chirping of birds or the rustling wind through trees. he heard nothing. silence. yet through all this time of trial he never ceased composing. Even on his death-bed he sketched a new symphony. from his Late piano sonatas to his 9th and last symphony mankind has witnessed his genius. a genius no man could ever tap. why? it was because in silence he had faith in God, and continued to compose in the midst of growing doubt. i truly believe Beethoven's greatest works were near the end of his life. this was when he began to see clearly through the originally fuzzy lens. he began to witness firsthand God's true glory. and it is this glory that he portrays in his music. no words can describe the beauty, the depth, the passion, the love, and the hope that is written in those seemingly lifeless black dots and lines on some flimsy manuscript paper.
music reaches the deepest pits of our very being. music is God's gift. it is his arms extending down to us, embracing us, speaking to us. music is the greatest gift we could ever ask for. . and i love music .
23.5.06
mush talk
there is no stronger earthly bond than family.
Thank you Daddy - You've always been my wall, supporting me, most of the times without my knowing.
Thank you Mommy - you're my emotional outlet; not only that you really are my best friend :)
Thank you Michael - i'm too dependant on you michael; you've always guided me in life. you've always encouraged me to strive for the best, to go for my dreams
Thank you David - whether you know it or not, you've taught me so much about life in general, about growing up, becoming an adult, and most of all you've taught me to never give up when things aren't going my way
and then there's one last member of our family :) the most important member of course:
Thank you GOD! - you hold this family within the palm of your hand. you've seen all of us through thick and thin. you've carried us through all sorrow and through all joy. Thank you God for being our ultimate father, our everlasting ruler and our all-knowing guide
Thank you Daddy - You've always been my wall, supporting me, most of the times without my knowing.
Thank you Mommy - you're my emotional outlet; not only that you really are my best friend :)
Thank you Michael - i'm too dependant on you michael; you've always guided me in life. you've always encouraged me to strive for the best, to go for my dreams
Thank you David - whether you know it or not, you've taught me so much about life in general, about growing up, becoming an adult, and most of all you've taught me to never give up when things aren't going my way
and then there's one last member of our family :) the most important member of course:
Thank you GOD! - you hold this family within the palm of your hand. you've seen all of us through thick and thin. you've carried us through all sorrow and through all joy. Thank you God for being our ultimate father, our everlasting ruler and our all-knowing guide
18.5.06
i feel the walls closing in. i can't breathe anymore. it hurts just thinking about the past, the present, and the future. i can't see anything or focus.. all i see is a blank abyss of nothingness and hopelessness. is this my calling. God whats your plan for me? am i to go about it the tough route? it just hurts . it hurts so much. i feel disillusioned that all this really isn't happening. God, i know i must trust in you at all times and you will make my paths straight, but Lord, i can't help but feel torn away and abandoned. where are you? can't you just pick me up and push me along? and if you are, why can't i feel it? so i still float in these neverending, neverbeginning waters ... stagnant, placid, unmoving.. waiting.. just waiting ..
14.5.06
you're here
Somewhere in the silence I can hear your broken voice
Like a radio station fading out of range
Somewhere in the crowd from the corner of my eye
I thought that I could feel you walking by
And when I get this feeling like I am not so strong
I still can feel you with me
You've been there all along
Like a radio station fading out of range
Somewhere in the crowd from the corner of my eye
I thought that I could feel you walking by
And when I get this feeling like I am not so strong
I still can feel you with me
You've been there all along
Happy Mommy's Day
She is more than the beauty you see,
Unbelievable depths under her quiet dignity.
She is powerful, opinionated and firey,
She has always had the power to inspire me.
She exudes a calm like no one else I know,
Until the dam breaks and the raw emotions flow.
She is a teacher, a confidante, a friend like no other,
She is even greater than all these,
She is My Mother.
Happy Mother's Day Mommy ~
Unbelievable depths under her quiet dignity.
She is powerful, opinionated and firey,
She has always had the power to inspire me.
She exudes a calm like no one else I know,
Until the dam breaks and the raw emotions flow.
She is a teacher, a confidante, a friend like no other,
She is even greater than all these,
She is My Mother.
Happy Mother's Day Mommy ~
27.4.06
Lacking Life
i miss you. i miss the way we used to talk about everything and anything. i miss being an open window to you. i miss praying with you and sharing with you the things that matter most to me. i miss being able to drop by whenever i want. i miss having meals together with you. i miss having you sleepover. i miss hearing you rant, or me ranting to you. i miss poking fun at you.
26.4.06
Thank You Mom!
Just getting off of the phone with my mom, I feel this warm glow in the pit of my stomach. I love my mom so much! She is the most amazing, most patient, most loving, and the kindest woman you could ever meet. If anything, she'd be the definition of selfless and self-sacrificing. All that I am or ever hope to be, I owe to my Mother! I can only wish to be half the woman she is when I grow up.
Thank you Mom for everything you've done for me and our family. Thank you for being the glue that ties us all together! Thank you for all your love and support through thick and thin! And Thank you for your thousands of prayers for me and our family!
Thank you Mom for everything you've done for me and our family. Thank you for being the glue that ties us all together! Thank you for all your love and support through thick and thin! And Thank you for your thousands of prayers for me and our family!
24.4.06
Words of Encouragement
Be the best you can for Him.
Don’t be afraid of taking risks.
Don’t settle for the inevitable, when you can believe for the impossible
Enjoy the journey!
18.4.06
Rejoice in the Lord Always!
Rejoice in the Lord Always!!
...
On Easter Sunday 2 days ago, the Kingston Chinese Alliance Church was stoned. Glass was shattered everywhere; Rocks were strewn here and there; and above all, there was a complete heartbroken and joyless silence, an unbearable silence that pervaded the entire church and all within it early that morning.
At first I was in utter shock and disbelief. Then sadness washed over me with the unbearable question of "Why?" Who would even think of doing that to a church? and on Easter Sunday of all days. First theft, now vandalism? Just like the shattered glass, my heart too was shattered for this world, and the faith I had in it. I always believed that we are ALL born as good people, and continue being good deep deep within, no matter how hard the exterior may seem. But that day, my faith in people was crushed. As I was picking up the shattered glass on the floor, the image of Jesus Christ battered, broken, and mutilated on the cross came to the forefront of my mind. Just as the church was physically broken, so was our Lord up on the cross: Physically, Mentally, and spiritually beaten. When I thought about it more, I honestly am no better than those who stoned the church. Each time I sin, Each time I turn the other way, Each time I am indifferent and uncaring, I have thrown a stone into the Church. Each sin is a cut on Christ's body; Each sin has nailed him on that cross.
Yet.. knowing that, we are all made new because of God's Love, and because of that we should rejoice! Our Lord has forgiven our sins yesterday, today, and forever. We are no longer chained to the world, but rather we are free to fly to Him the Most High.
The same Sunday, I had the honour to serve on the Worship Team. Every time I am up there, I feel close to you God. Each time I close my eyes, I'm in my room again, and its just me and you. no one else. I thank you Lord for putting in my heart the joy of singing to you. I can't wait until I'm in heaven with you Lord. I can't wait to sing songs to you day and night without any cracks, without any limiting ranges, and most of all without any fear of not sounding good enough for you. But Thank you God that I can rejoice in You through songs of praise! Hallelujah My Redeemer!
...
Rejoice in the Lord Always!!!
...
On Easter Sunday 2 days ago, the Kingston Chinese Alliance Church was stoned. Glass was shattered everywhere; Rocks were strewn here and there; and above all, there was a complete heartbroken and joyless silence, an unbearable silence that pervaded the entire church and all within it early that morning.
At first I was in utter shock and disbelief. Then sadness washed over me with the unbearable question of "Why?" Who would even think of doing that to a church? and on Easter Sunday of all days. First theft, now vandalism? Just like the shattered glass, my heart too was shattered for this world, and the faith I had in it. I always believed that we are ALL born as good people, and continue being good deep deep within, no matter how hard the exterior may seem. But that day, my faith in people was crushed. As I was picking up the shattered glass on the floor, the image of Jesus Christ battered, broken, and mutilated on the cross came to the forefront of my mind. Just as the church was physically broken, so was our Lord up on the cross: Physically, Mentally, and spiritually beaten. When I thought about it more, I honestly am no better than those who stoned the church. Each time I sin, Each time I turn the other way, Each time I am indifferent and uncaring, I have thrown a stone into the Church. Each sin is a cut on Christ's body; Each sin has nailed him on that cross.
Yet.. knowing that, we are all made new because of God's Love, and because of that we should rejoice! Our Lord has forgiven our sins yesterday, today, and forever. We are no longer chained to the world, but rather we are free to fly to Him the Most High.
The same Sunday, I had the honour to serve on the Worship Team. Every time I am up there, I feel close to you God. Each time I close my eyes, I'm in my room again, and its just me and you. no one else. I thank you Lord for putting in my heart the joy of singing to you. I can't wait until I'm in heaven with you Lord. I can't wait to sing songs to you day and night without any cracks, without any limiting ranges, and most of all without any fear of not sounding good enough for you. But Thank you God that I can rejoice in You through songs of praise! Hallelujah My Redeemer!
...
Rejoice in the Lord Always!!!
15.12.05
almost there.
I can see the light. my last exam is peeking just around the corner! I'm almost there; can't wait to be home. I need to see family again, I need to see my home church again. I feel like such a baby being so homesick, ooh , just a bit more.
So, this was what my week has been like thus far (exam-wise):
monday = anatomy 215
tuesday = biology 205
wednesday = linear alg 111
friday (tomorrow) = organic chem 281
disgusting? I agree. But like i said, i'm almost DONE! Despite my homesickness, there's still a part of me that wants to stay in kingston. Oh, I've been sucked into loving those highschoolers. Joycie why? lol! we're getting together tomorrow just after my orgo exam, and just before my bus ticket outta here. Its gonna be such a fun nite, gift exchange, fajitas, games games games! I had NO idea what to get DanielO, but ended up sticking with what he requested ==> sour candies. yup, how unoriginal, how boring. but hey, i got an excuse! had no time to shop or to think of an interesting gift, .. joycie even BOUGHT his gift for me! thats how crunched for time i've been lately.
...
throughout this stressful week, i've discovered 2 really cool bands!
1) Death cab for Cutie
2) Kutless
i think i'm really likin emo these days. Dean got me hooked! one song i recommend from death cab :: title & registration <-- i guarantee you'll like it if you're into something subtle & laidback. Now Kutless, they're a christian band, sorta like ReliantK, so in other words, they're AMAZING! I'd classify them as a sorta "rebopunk-gone-good" group (lol if that makes sense). Song for recommendation :: Treason <-- listen.
So, this was what my week has been like thus far (exam-wise):
monday = anatomy 215
tuesday = biology 205
wednesday = linear alg 111
friday (tomorrow) = organic chem 281
disgusting? I agree. But like i said, i'm almost DONE! Despite my homesickness, there's still a part of me that wants to stay in kingston. Oh, I've been sucked into loving those highschoolers. Joycie why? lol! we're getting together tomorrow just after my orgo exam, and just before my bus ticket outta here. Its gonna be such a fun nite, gift exchange, fajitas, games games games! I had NO idea what to get DanielO, but ended up sticking with what he requested ==> sour candies. yup, how unoriginal, how boring. but hey, i got an excuse! had no time to shop or to think of an interesting gift, .. joycie even BOUGHT his gift for me! thats how crunched for time i've been lately.
...
throughout this stressful week, i've discovered 2 really cool bands!
1) Death cab for Cutie
2) Kutless
i think i'm really likin emo these days. Dean got me hooked! one song i recommend from death cab :: title & registration <-- i guarantee you'll like it if you're into something subtle & laidback. Now Kutless, they're a christian band, sorta like ReliantK, so in other words, they're AMAZING! I'd classify them as a sorta "rebopunk-gone-good" group (lol if that makes sense). Song for recommendation :: Treason <-- listen.
16.11.05
be still
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
Life is always changing, the world is always moving, but you are CONSTANT!
Teach me to slow everything around me; teach me to be still in your presence
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
Life is always changing, the world is always moving, but you are CONSTANT!
Teach me to slow everything around me; teach me to be still in your presence
13.11.05
my weekend
Yesterday, I took a long break from this world. It was beautiful having time spent with you God. much needed one on one time. Thank you for renewing my spirit. There are times when I wish I could fastforward life to about 10 years from now, to the time (i believe) everything will be more or less settled in my life.. i.e. i'll have a job, and just maybe i'll have started a family. But when i think about it more and more, life is so precious! Its truly a wonderful gift from God. To take in the delicious smell of autumn; to feel the tingly cold sensation of frost on our skin; to feast our eyes on a magnificent awe-inspiring soul-filling sunset... and to think this beauty is just a mere shadow in comparison to you. I'm blown away!
I want to share a probably insignificant story.. but to me its just further proof of God's divinity!
...
Last night, after House council (which lasted till 2am!) I came home and noticed a book on my shelf. It was one of my brother's: "The case for faith" . I've always heard people quote or use information from this book, but never got around to reading it. So I decided I'd start last night, despite it being late and all, and despite my being very drained from the day. If anyone knows me, they'd know that I have such a difficult time waking up because i always turn off my alarm clock when i sleep! But I really wanted to read, so I released the worry of waking up and left it up to God. I ended up sleeping a bit before 4am.. (normally, i'd be doomed to sleep in) ... but of course, lo and behold, the next morning Joyce calls me out of the blue at 7:40am. She had a dream apparently (where she needed her passport), and woke up all of a sudden to call me. Passport or not, she called! and because of that call, I woke up for worship practice! So thank you Joyce and Thank you God for taking care of me :)
Happy Birthday Mary-Clair!!
L-->R: Nikki, Mary-Clair, me & Vivian!
I want to share a probably insignificant story.. but to me its just further proof of God's divinity!
...
Last night, after House council (which lasted till 2am!) I came home and noticed a book on my shelf. It was one of my brother's: "The case for faith" . I've always heard people quote or use information from this book, but never got around to reading it. So I decided I'd start last night, despite it being late and all, and despite my being very drained from the day. If anyone knows me, they'd know that I have such a difficult time waking up because i always turn off my alarm clock when i sleep! But I really wanted to read, so I released the worry of waking up and left it up to God. I ended up sleeping a bit before 4am.. (normally, i'd be doomed to sleep in) ... but of course, lo and behold, the next morning Joyce calls me out of the blue at 7:40am. She had a dream apparently (where she needed her passport), and woke up all of a sudden to call me. Passport or not, she called! and because of that call, I woke up for worship practice! So thank you Joyce and Thank you God for taking care of me :)
Happy Birthday Mary-Clair!!
L-->R: Nikki, Mary-Clair, me & Vivian!
8.11.05
home is where the heart is
i don't know why.. but i've been missing home so much these days. I miss michael. i miss david. I miss mommy and daddy. Its weird, i never felt this way in 1st year.. but these days, all I can think about is HOME. this past summer, i must've complained a lot.. but when i think about it, i had an awesome summer! why? well mainly cuz i got to see my family.
I'm so excited i FINALLY got a phone plan though. Unlimited long distance across canada! OHHH YEAH :) I'm even more excited about going home this christmas! I feel like such a kid again.
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Today at bible study, we talked about Martha and Mary in Luke 10:38-42. I relate to Martha so much unfortunately. Just like her, i get bogged down by the little things.. i feel so much pressure though. So many ppl count on me, or rather expect things from me.. i'm finding it harder and harder to deliver. I yearn to be more like Mary - to allow Him to take control of my life, and subsequently all my unfounded worries.
God, teach me to look beyond this world, to things that truly matter, to things that are beautiful and everlasting.
amen.
I'm so excited i FINALLY got a phone plan though. Unlimited long distance across canada! OHHH YEAH :) I'm even more excited about going home this christmas! I feel like such a kid again.
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Today at bible study, we talked about Martha and Mary in Luke 10:38-42. I relate to Martha so much unfortunately. Just like her, i get bogged down by the little things.. i feel so much pressure though. So many ppl count on me, or rather expect things from me.. i'm finding it harder and harder to deliver. I yearn to be more like Mary - to allow Him to take control of my life, and subsequently all my unfounded worries.
God, teach me to look beyond this world, to things that truly matter, to things that are beautiful and everlasting.
amen.
8.6.05
Anything BUT the Bunnies!!!
Just the other day when i was coming home from UVic, i saw ROADKILL!! Now, in Kingston, its a bit different, cuz despite how i do like fuzzy lill animals, squirrels aren't exactly the cutest of fuzzy creatures. Bunnies on the other hand! Oh they just melt your heart cuz they're so incredibly adorable! Don't you just wanna pick em up and hug em and kiss em! Cute cute cute cute! If you like bunnies, you should definitely come out to Victoria! I mean, they're EVERYWHERE on campus here (kinda like the equivalent of squirrels at queens). Anyways, turning round the corner to exit I saw a bunny just layin there on the road. It was a white bunny with brown splotches, fairly well-fed and round, had the bushiest fluffiest pompom of a tail you could ever imagine, and it just laid there, plopped in the middle of the road with his legs sprawled out like lill tree stumps. How could anyone just run down a bunny like that? If it were me and i had the choice to either (1) Stop, let the bunny run across, but in the process get hit by the car behind me... or (2) Run down that bunny like no tomorrow.. well OF COURSE i'd pick One! I mean we're talking BUNNIES here! Not Squirrels!
ok, enough bout bunnies.. but it really was a CUTE bunny! the cutest of the cutest if you ask me! I would've named him Freddypoo. well, anyways.. right now I'm stuck here in the basement of UVic chem building waiting for my samples to finish analyzing.. and listening to HORRIBLE music! Theres only one radio here from the 60s i swear! and the only station is the UVic station. but i gotta say, its at least better than the queens station! ahh. actually maybe not.. I tell ya though, its just WRONG being in here this late! I mean its almost 9pm! But then again, i shouldn't complain, cuz there are those who stay here till the early hours of morn waiting for their reactions to complete! ouch i say
Oh Look at that!! the spectra's complete! i guess i'm outta here now . But before i go, just remember, if ever you see a lil bunny crossin the street STOP! that is all.
ok, enough bout bunnies.. but it really was a CUTE bunny! the cutest of the cutest if you ask me! I would've named him Freddypoo. well, anyways.. right now I'm stuck here in the basement of UVic chem building waiting for my samples to finish analyzing.. and listening to HORRIBLE music! Theres only one radio here from the 60s i swear! and the only station is the UVic station. but i gotta say, its at least better than the queens station! ahh. actually maybe not.. I tell ya though, its just WRONG being in here this late! I mean its almost 9pm! But then again, i shouldn't complain, cuz there are those who stay here till the early hours of morn waiting for their reactions to complete! ouch i say
Oh Look at that!! the spectra's complete! i guess i'm outta here now . But before i go, just remember, if ever you see a lil bunny crossin the street STOP! that is all.
4.6.05
taking care of business?
I always have mixed feelings whenever i hear ppl say "God will take care of everything". Of course i know God gives us strength, but is it right to rely on Him to the extent that we forget to do our part? I mean ya we could put in our 10% and hope for dear life he will literally fight our battles for us.. but NO! Life isn't like that! .. now why am i rambling on like this? Cuz I hate how i've fallen victim to that phrase most of my life! I've been too passive and too comfortable about life. maybe i've been too high in the clouds to realize the reality of things. i've just been doing a lot of thinking these days.. and its not enough to give even 50% and leave the other half to God! We have to give it our 100% cuz its us and not God who does the work here on earth. I'm not even sure what i'm saying is making sense to you.. but it's crystal clear to me right now. I'm just scared of what will happen if i really do giv it my all in life.. will it turn out to be what i expected?
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