i choose you. no turning back, no stopping, no hesitating... none of that anymore... because despite everything this world has to offer, i choose you. YOU! I choose YOU!!! how funny that i've tricked myself into believing that this world could actually give me all i want, give me peace, happinness, joy... but when i look closely, everything this world offers is nothing but dust, from dust we were born, and to dust we will become. and after everything has shattered, all I'm left with is you. and i realize now that you are the true treasure i've been searching for my whole life. it is you where all good comes from, it is you where i shall find rest. i lay broken and bare in your hands. cloak me with your everlasting righteousness. may i not be driven by emotions, but by truth. truth that stands and will stand eternally.

help me live out a life worthy of your name. there's such weight given to the name "Christian". i bear your name, your cross. i feel i'm so unworthy to be called a Christian. i'm so unworthy to be loved by you. and yet you do. why? how funny you are that you'd accept ME, you'd take me in all that i lack, in all my imperfections, you still choose me. but that isn't why i choose you. i don't choose you because you chose me, i choose you because i NEED you. because this life isn't worth living if i don't have you. because i can't live this life if you're not with me. all things fade with time. i too will fade, but you , you will always be bold and brilliant , you will always outshine the brightest star. you. you will always have my heart. i love you. i choose you. you and only you.