more of you...

i've always regarded myself as a nocturnal being! Anyone who knows me can attest to my being a log when i sleep and thus it being impossible for me to get up in the mornin (unless you kick me off the bed.. thnx twin)

i'd usually wakeup early in the afternoon..but lately i've been waking up at the oddest hours, sometimes when the sun hasn't even risen yet.. its weird, even though i've been averaging about 5 hours of sleep per night, i feel completely and utterly rested when i awake! .and of course its God giving me this strength to wake up.. however i'm hoping that even after exams are finished i'll be able to wake up early and spend more time on him and less on myself..

I remember back in highschool there was a period when i'd wake up early everyday for prayer and devotions..but coming here it died down drastically! I miss it. I miss just talking to you Lord hours on end about everything and nothing. Its absolutely true what Pastor Lo said this Sunday -- our prayers have become self-centered, or at least mine have. I'm either praying for myself or others, never for the sake of just talking to you..

in the past, i've always set aside one day every semester devoted to you in solitude - just for prayer, meditation, and worship.. i want to do it again before i leave for home....

You are My King

You are my King and I love You
You are my King and I worship You
Kneeling before You now
All of my life, I gladly give to You
Placing my hopes and dreams in Your hands
I give my heart to You
I love You, love You, Jesus
Yes I love You, love You
Jesus my King

thank you for a new day Lord, and thank you for giving me this life here on Earth. Be with me today like always

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Ever feel like you're completely helpless? like there's so much going wrong around you, but it seems like everything you say or try to do makes things even worse. I hate how this world is so corrupt, and I hate how people try to tear you down. How can people be so cruel and heartless?

I just wish I had the words to say during the moment. I want to be here for you. You let me laugh with you.. now let me cry with you too. I'm here for you.....

Breathe

I'm becoming cross-eyed reading and re-reading psyc. I think my head's about to explode any second. I just want to write this exam now and be over with it! But ya, today i was stuck in my room for the most part. So when i finally dragged myself out for a late late afternoon lunch (sorry kevin), I was blinded by the sun. Its funny how I'm so easily quieted down by the littlest things. Let me describe it: the whole street was empty, only the wind blowing and rustling through the leaves, the sun's rays were so warming right to the core, and the air - it made you just shiver at how wonderful it felt to be ALIVE and breathe it all in! It was like *BAM* - all those thoughts running around in my head earlier suddenly stopped and all was quiet.

Why does nature have such an empowering effect on us? Why does it move us so? oh yes, cuz God created it - its merely a shadow of how brilliant and beautiful our creator truly is!!

grace is blogging?

I remember telling myself that I'd never have an online journal or anything of that sort. So why the change all of a sudden? Well, i guess this is for myself more than anything else. Just to clear my mind, reflect on things around me, and to look back a few years from now or even a few days and see how much God has worked in my life! Besides those few visitors who by chance stumble across this blog, these random thoughts are just between me and well, me i guess.

It's weird! I mean, i'm in the midst of exams and here i am starting up a blog. I guess I just want to lift up this year to God and thank him for revealing his presence to me daily. God, you never fail to amaze me ~ you've carried me my whole life and without you I am nothing. You've showed your kindness and answered my prayers this year. I was scared about coming to Queen's .. i mean, i was worried about making friends, finding a church i could call 'home', doing well in school, and the list goes on! But, wow God, you've helped me through it all. I absolutely LOVE KCAC! I love walking through those front doors and entering the sanctuary, and i love the people you've put in that church. Every single person in that fellowship has nurtured my faith and guided me towards a straighter and clearer path. Oh Lord, i thank you for the friends you've given me here! Especially Joycie God! I don't think she'll ever know just how much I really do love her. She's not only a friend and sister, she's also someone i look up to in so many ways.

i think I'll leave it at that for now, but i'll continue on rambling another day. okay, now it's study time!

So.. final thought? God, you are an awesome God and i thank you for all the people you've put in my life. you've answered my prayers BEYOND what i expected Lord