i pray for forgiveness.

i pray for focus.

i'm sorry . i think for a second i forgot my identity.. why else would i say the things i say, or do the things i do?

why is it that i keep on walking down this same road.. why do i sway so easily when the slightest breeze flies by... why am i so squishy.... i hate being like this.. i hate this... i need to get off this cloud... i really do.. cuz its hurting my soul i think... i'm not seeing clearly...

yes things have changed.. but some things ought to not change... and yet... those things that aren't supposed to change ARE changing.. ..