18.6.10

the mountain climb

Some friends and I climbed Mt. Tibrogargan! This from someone who used to be & to some degree still is afraid of heights. When we got to the top, it was beautiful! And then coming down, wow it was deathly steep. There were moments where if I lifted off one hand or one foot or for a second lost my balance, I felt like I would go free-falling & tumble down to my doom. Thankfully, the guys were really good at helping A and myself spot out good holds and foot placements. I definitely took it nice and slow :) At the end when we were all back at the base of the mountain, we then read the Warning Sign off to the side mentioning the climb was "dangerous and may lead to serious injury or death". My goodness! Can't believe we missed the sign on the way up! But just looking up and seeing the crazy mountain we climbed you can't help but feel this HUGE sense of accomplishment of conquering the mountain and going beyond what you thought you'd be able to do! Initially A & i were expecting a leisurely hike at a gradual slope up the mountain, good thing the guys didn't tell us what to expect (& that we missed reading the warning sign on the way up lol), otherwise we might not have done it at all!

This mountain climb made me think about how it relates to life. Many want to see into the future, we want to have that peace of knowing the unknown, and so people seek out fortune tellers or call psychic lines or read horoscopes/zodiacs just so that some sort of comfort can be found with having the unknown made known; what a false comfort. I too find myself wanting to know from God where to go and to know what the next step is. I love being able to know and plan and prepare for things, unfortunately that isn't always the way life works, and God doesn't usually reveal everything to us at once. Often you hear ppl say that its through the unknown where our faith is grown, where we gain peace knowing our steps are prepared for us by Him who goes before us (kind of like how a guide would help a climber know where to go and where to place your hands and feet when climbing a mountain by going ahead). At the same time, by His grace, He also knows it's for our own good that we don't know or see too far ahead into the future. Just like climbing up the mountain, there were moments when I'd look up ahead and all i saw was a sheet of rock going up and up, and would think to myself that I couldn't do it and had to snap myself out of it, so we too can easily be psyched out if God were to show His huge plans for us that are WAY beyond our capability and comfort (unless of course He thinks we're ready to handle it), that we'd jump into a boat and head the other direction. By His grace, He shows us just enough. He leads us one step at a time that is in perfect reach for us, sometimes its a bigger step stretching us, but always manageable with Him leading and showing the way. This way we are not disheartened or overwhelmed on the path. And as we gain more and more climbing experience, he stretches us even further bringing us to new heights, and we are no longer scared or discouraged when joining our eyes with His and seeing the big climbs ahead that He will take us on cuz we have increased strength in our well-exercised faith muscle for our Guide who will help lead us to tackle the seemingly impossible paths.


How awesome it is that God builds us and leads us up the mountain without us even realizing it. How all the struggles, the persistence & perseverance, the experiences and journeys, how it has all shaped us to where we are now, and to where we are going in the future : )