i hate this.. i'm beginning to feel so restrained here in kingston. i just want to get out. its so frustrating at times.. how small this town is. you hear people say how they miss kingston cuz its so much more easier to live without all the complications/busyness that a big city brings. victoria, contrary to what most people think, is HUGE compared to here. you go downtown and there's so much life. i think i'm starting to miss home. i just miss familiarity. it feels like so many people are gone now.. i just wanna go .. i don't like being in kingston anymore.

but i guess God has a purpose for everything .. i know i'm glad i've gotten to know some friends at a whole new level. its surprising at times how many layers people have. its so enriching when you learn about all these different aspects a person may have.. really, people are just like onions :) its nice knowing that there's more to a person than the superficial. that a conversation can go beyond the mindless banter and actually hit those issues that pierce the core of our humanity..

or not.

i just.. really want to get out right now. maybe this is a passing phase. hopefully its a passing thing..

i'm so tired of this.. so tired in general. i think i'm gonna take a nap and dream. i like dreams.. things are so much simpler.. easier... nicer..